Wednesday, December 16, 2009
In fact, no one is like "other people". I guess that's what makes us all special and individual and all that stuff. But I'm a slow learner, and I can be particularly dense sometimes. I'm just now learning (in almost my 31st year of life) that I don't think the same way as "other people", and other people don't think the same way as me. And that's okay.
I have these ginormously high expectations of myself that I'm constantly not living up to. But no one cares about this but me. Instead of just being "me" I want to be the perfect Wifey, the perfect employee, the perfect friend, the perfect body shape, the perfect daughter, the perfect granddaughter, the perfect sister etc etc. No pressure or anything!! And when I fall short of this, it really gets me down.
I know that this is making me sound like a perfectionist, and I'm really not, as I just give up when I'm not perfect! :-) I just try and do too much all the time and then when I don't succeed I fall in a heap. So even though I don't like to make New Years resolutions, my goal for next year is to give myself a break; to let myself be me, however imperfect.
It's going to be tough :-)