Saturday, April 14, 2012
(Warning: Spoiler alert.)
I only wish there were some of Vivian's letters included as well, but they were all one way. The last part of the book is Vivian taking the reader through their courtship, Johnny's return home (I got very teary), their marriage, their children, the drugs and booze that put so much strain on their marriage, and the other woman in Johnny's life who may have contributed to their eventual demise.
I can't quite put my finger on why this has affected me so much. It really broke my heart and I feel like I'm grieving for someone I don't even know. I feel like I want to talk to Vivian, to know this dignified, beautiful woman who waited so long for the love of her life, only to have everything fall apart within a decade. I ache over her broken heart, her tears, her frustration, losing her beloved to another woman and feeling like all she could do was watch it all unfold.
Even writing this now, I'm filled with anger and sadness. As I said, I really don't know why it has affected me this much. And the thing is, now I don't really want to read Johnny Cash's autobiography. It's seemingly mainly centres around his life and marriage to June Carter. (I don't know that I could ever read June's biography...)
I don't know if I want to read about a man who broke the heart of a young woman, so devoted and full of hope. I know this is an unfair judgement, but we all know I'm hopelessly flawed. Maybe in time I can read more about their story, but for now, I'm totally on Vivian's side.