Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Yesterday and today have been pretty cruisey and not terribly newsworthy, so I'm going to blog about something I've been thinking about for a while. The fact that I'm afraid of the dark.
It's great at this time of the year as it doesn't get dark here til about 8:30pm. For as long as I can remember I've been afraid of the dark and I don't like it. I'd like to change that about myself. Any suggestions?
Because of this fear, I absolutely HATE staying at home on my own overnight. During the day I'm absolutely fine, and feel that I can handle it, but as soon as it starts getting dark, I start getting anxious. It's so ridiculous! All I want to do is lock myself in my room and will myself to sleep all night long. Don't even get me started on having to get up in the middle of the night to pee when I'm all alone. If I don't do it straight away, it can take half an hour to summons the courage.
So what am I afraid of? I think burglars are the big one for me, even though I have never ever ever been robbed. That is just so irrational! I think I've watched too many movies where getting up in the middle of the night ends badly. I do wish I were made of tougher stuff.
I read a quote by Marie Curie stating "Nothing is to be feared, only understood" and I'm really trying to embrace that. I don't want to spend my life fearing something that will likely never happen. What a waste of energy that is!
Anyway, if you have any suggestions about how to become less afraid of "the dark" I would love to hear them...