Friday, March 4, 2011
I'm lonely. There. I said it. Now I'm not looking for sympathy :-), I'm merely stating a fact. I know what you're saying. "You're really good at making friends" and this is true. But it's those long-standing friendships that really sustain a person's soul. I felt like I was just starting to make these friends in Melbourne and then we left. I still keep in contact with some gal pals from Melbs, and I love them dearly, but it's not the same as having someone I can call up and meet for coffee on any given day.
I think another contributing factor is that I had all my friends and family in Brisbane so close by for 6 weeks and I really miss that. It was so great to hang out with all the people who know us so well, so we didn't have to be on our best behaviour all the time.
I also have this huge fear that I don't make good first impressions. I just get nervous and want people to like me and I end up babbling and telling weird stories. I'm sure some of the mums in the mother's group thought I was a bit odd the first few times they met me. (I started late - they had already been meeting for a month before I joined the group.) Thankfully (hopefully) I have redeemed myself with a great meet up yesterday over coffee. There were about 8 of us and I was a bit less nervous and bit more coherent. They are such a great bunch of women and I do hope I get to know them better over the coming months.
A few of them in particular, come to think of it, most of them, are really outgoing and friendly which is so lovely. It means I don't have to always make all the effort so I can relax a little bit.
Anyway, things really are going tremendously well for our little family. We are getting into somewhat of a routine, and I make sure I get out of the house every day for a walk or lunch with Hubs or a coffee in town. I do love Wang, but we are also looking forward to our next adventure in Mt Beauty in July.